16/06/2024
I hate Father’s Day
I hate seeing the quotes how you might miss your father if he’s dies- or- how he’s your hero - your best friend ,,,,
For those of us in this world with s**t fathers , please spare a thought
some of us had cruel, uncaring, unloving arsholes as our biological
Some of us were beaten regularly, some of us were forced to join a cruel and evil cult who pretended to worship God ,,,
When really it was an excuse to be judgemental and get your money
I watches dear friends be disfellowshipes, I had a sister in law and a dear friend who both killed themselves as young and beautiful women
It took me decades to even believe there is actually a God - and that he is kind and forgiving and gracious and loving - and at 16 I was slung out of the door never to return !! Me, a bag of clothes and a saddle !!! They sold my horse and didn’t even tell me !!!
So please remember us lost ones who as children didn’t have a hero to look up to, or a faithful friend, or a brilliant advocate,,, I still remember the slices on my backside aand legs of the tomato cane - inflicted daily as I continued to visit my Nana on my way to school - as I had been banned from seeing her as she was by a JW!!! -
They say you marry your father!!
Sadly I did - and the beatings and hurt lasted for another 14 years
Evil , cruel, nasty, spiteful - but on the surface the life and soul of the party
In January - as I will enter my 60 TJ year - I am
Writing a book - a true and honest account of my life
And boy - will it make people think !!!
I tried with all my heart not to fail at my first marriage , I nursed my darling mum in law through a decade of cancer - and she died in my arms long after i had left the marriage - then I was stopped by Him for entering the church at her funeral !!!
And today the only father I’m interested in is the father to my children
Geraint John Thomas took on 3 children and loved them equally as his own ,,,, and when we were blessed with Henry and ollie, no distinction was made -
There was no talk of half brothers or half sisters
Just 5 kids being loved by the most incredible human there is on Gods Earth
It hasn’t gone to plan - it’s a painful time
But , we ve tried and that’s all we can do
Geraint - my Love
Thank you for piecing me back together after a lifetime of hurt and cruelty
Thank you for working every hour god sends to results our lives after gilestone - and yes - all that evidence will be in my book too
F**k it
It’s time to be honest
Life is too short for lies and dramas and unkind and disloyal people
To all you parents out there who are amazing - well done, your children are blessed
To all you parents who are not so good
Please get better as, even at nearly 59 I’m still fu**ed in the head not to have been loved by the very people who brought me into this world
Worlds number one dad
We love you always and forever###
