10/07/2024
PAGE WILL BE DELETED AS WELL AS MY PERSONAL ONE.
I’m not a saint, I have completely lost myself but I want you to imagine my life right now. I don’t purposely go out my way to hurt anyone. Iv been through so much since December that I’m not even sure who I am anymore. I’m not playing the “poor me” card I don’t blame anyone for talking about me or anything I take full responsibility for the people I have hurt and the people who are hurting and worrying.
A false allegation was made and plastered everywhere on scammers pages, this statement was false and all evidence is there to prove this, I spoke to the scammers page admin and was told they were entitled to their opinion regardless of me having evidence than every detail posted about me was false. So this then got everyone and their dog talking and slandering me online. I understand you get trolls ect but this was the start of my nightmare!
In the space of a week I had 80% of my bookings cancelled due to this said post. I had people talking about me who have known me my full life, I got death threats, I got prank calls, emails, texts, messages every 5 minutes every day all day. They all wanted deposits back, deposits that were not refundable, or possible to refund as this was my income over the years. So then there was more posts iv stole money creating even more stories making yet another alarm causing more cancellations.
What people don’t understand is a deposit isn’t refunded at all from any supplier or service, I’m not even going into the deposit side of things. It’s the constantly posting about me making me out to be this worldwide scammer.
I worked hard in college to graduate in photography, I helped anyone, I worked for nothing. I build my own clients, I spoke the truth and I loved every single session I done. It’s not easy it’s extremely difficult.
I have suffered depression since I was a child and anxiety since around 2019 this isn’t a poor me comment this is my life, and anyone who deals with anxiety will relate. I don’t want to post my personal life but I’m so sick fed up of being told I’m playing a poor me story when it’s nothing of the sort.
I am medicated to the full dose my body can handle, I have 6 week check ins with my mental health doctor and I can’t explain fully what other. Things I need to work on. BUT I can tell you that I cry every day, I’m scared every day, I’m housebound because it’s the only place I feel safe. I don’t want to talk about anything happy because it will be a sin I can’t laugh or smile or post anything about my daughter because I shouldn’t I should be in a room in darkness and hiding.
I have so many clients cancel, so many that I can’t even tell u who hasn’t and I have 1000000 tabs open in my brain, every time I work on one tab I have a new one arise. I don’t know what day of the week it is, I don’t know how to sleep, concentrate or anything that keeps me functioning.
I have been so unwell. The thought of leaving my house puts me into a state of anxiety I can’t breathe I’m dizzy I’m sick and my eyes are all over the place. I wish I was lying and I wish I didn’t upset anyone.
I know iv let people down, I own up to that, I have missed weddings, I have got cover and I do owe people invoices for covering me. Alongside all of this I have always cared and worried more about my clients than my own health.
I have to take time off social media, I have to work on my health and my head because I’m a ghost of who I once was and I’m scared.
I don’t want anyone to mail me abuse I know I’m a terrible person and I know the world is awful with me in. But all I want is people to stop harassing me, stop calling me and hanging up, stop the rude emails and please stop signing me up to clinincs.
Iv had 3 clinics contact me after they received my application for removal of ge***al warts, another for a face lift and another for face reconstruction. People are sending me emails of fat content, and I’m a pig and I’m a loser and I’m not worth anything. If I’m so unwell why don’t I end my life, do everyone a favour and die and the list goes on.
I’m not ok, I’m really not. But I’m a human being, I can’t imagine anyone would be able to work or function properly with this amount of harassment on the daily.
I am sorry, I’m so sorry for anyone I have hurt, anyone who cancelled due to these posts.
I am trying to honour the bookings I have and even still there cancelling so I have hit the bottom and I am sorry to u all.
I am coming off all social media, I need to work on me and my health. To the bookings I have please email me at [email protected]
I will leave this post on the page for a few days to reach everyone but I am removing all my pages even my personal page.
MY CLIENTS WHO STAYED JUST EMAIL ME CONFIRMATION THAT U STILL WISH ME TO PHOTOGRAPH YOUR WEDDING THATS THE ONLY CONFIRMATION I WILL HAVE.
Thank you.