11/05/2024
A day I will never forget. 30 years ago today God took my mother away from me age(12) and my sister age (10). I knew before they told me I could feel it in my soul that my mom was gone. We come home and the family is at our house. So knew why they were there but not understanding why I knew. God always put like a ball in my stomach when something is not right. The way that he communicates with me sometimes So before they told us I already knew. So I remember that my sister was in my stepdad lap, and I was nailed down on the side of the sofa, looking at the large picture of my mother in a frame. I started to cry and ran away to be alone. I knew I was alone that God was with me the whole time. Also my family didn’t want me to be alone so they came after me. I could remember going outside and when I did my childhood friend was out so I talked to her. Was thankful to have my sister to be able to talk to about how I was feeling. She was feeling the same way. To have had her with me made it easy to live. Yes we went to a therapist at the time the only thing that we did was cry so I asked my aunt do we have to go back to the therapist? I don’t wanna go. All I do is cry so we stop going to therapist and I think the way that I dealt with it is coming up with different movies to look at over and over and over and over again. Not knowing that the Grace of God was the only way I was living. Knowing now that that was my trauma at the age of 12. Now that it’s been 30 years, I’m able to face it deal with it and pray about it. So thankful that I Know God to talk to and get though any thing. I’m a child of God and he will never leave me nor forsake me. I know he will never put more on me than I can bear. This is for someone that needed to see you can make it with the Grace of God
