17/06/2023
The Weight
I am struggling immensely to find clarity amidst the overwhelming challenges I face. Achieving a good life seems elusive due to an enduring battle with a personal demon that has plagued me for a long time. This demon's presence fluctuates, but I yearn to witness the true outcome of conquering it. Surprisingly, it has served as a constant reminder that I am not alone in my struggles. However, the intense self-hatred I experience obstructs my path to liberation. My mind and soul have persevered because of this demon, granting me strength. Yet, I believe it is imperative to release its grip on me if I ever wish to see the light of day. The extent of control it exerts over me is astonishing. It thrives on the desire of others to leave, while I desperately long for them to stay. The confines of my own thoughts drive me to the brink of insanity. Equally bewildering is the realization of how frequently I wear a false smile in front of others. Questions about my authenticity and the nature of reality itself torment me. I implore anyone to aid me in this battle against the demon, for I am utterly exhausted by its relentless presence.
(Verse 1)
In the depths of my struggles, I search for clarity,
Lost in a battle with a demon that won't set me free,
Elusive is the good life, it feels so far away,
This personal demon haunting me day by day.
(Chorus)
But I yearn to witness the triumph, the victory,
To conquer this darkness that's been drowning me,
A reminder in the shadows, I'm not alone,
Though self-hatred binds me, I'll find my way back home.
(Verse 2)
My mind and soul keep fighting, fueled by this beast,
Granting strength and resilience, from its grasp I seek release,
To see the light of day, I must break these chains,
This demon's control over me, it's driving me insane.
(Chorus)
It feeds on others' desire to leave and forsake,
While I beg them to stay, my heart and soul ache,
Trapped within my thoughts, a prison of my own,
Questioning my authenticity, is this reality or unknown?
(Bridge)
In this maddening dance, a mask I wear so well,
A smile that's not genuine, the truth I cannot tell,
But I yearn for freedom, to break these walls I've built,
To find my true self, in this battle of guilt.
(Chorus)
I call out to anyone who can lend a helping hand,
To fight alongside me, against this demon's demand,
Exhausted and weary, I long for its demise,
For I've grown tired of this demon's relentless lies.
(Outro)
In the midst of the struggle, I'll find my way through,
With strength and determination, my spirit will renew,
And when the dust settles, I'll stand tall and strong,
Conquering this demon, finally where I belong.