26/03/2024
Nine years ago today my life changed forever. Getting that nightmare of a phone call that you were gone. My first reaction you just went off the grid you weren’t “gone” then it was you were dead and no other information. Not wanting to believe it I had to see you for myself. Walking into that medical examiners office I was hoping they got it wrong. But the reality set in you weren’t here no more. My world definitely crashed that day You definitely took a piece of me with you. Looking back My childhood I really had the best of you. you pretty much did everything for me that I probably drove you insane but you never cared. I Never realized how much I took for granted. Knowing you would always be here especially on the bad days. Nobody could change my mood like you bro. You had this thing about you if you were in a good place and maybe I was pi**ed at the world for something probably stupid you wouldn’t stop being your goofy ass self til I was over whatever was bothering me.
Part of me really believe I could’ve saved you from this. You used to tell me I have such an ego and a god complex. I wish that was the case cause if it was you’d still be here. I’ll never forget that conversation we had. You knew this s**t was gonna eventually get you. You being real with me that you weren’t going to make it to 40. You asked me to make sure of certain things. I was so angry about it at first because I didn’t wanna believe it but you made me listen cause I was the person you knew that would always take care of everything. the person you trusted the most and it was also your way of making sure I was prepared to eventually let you go. That bond we had from the day I was born and until you had to leave… 19 years of my life that I wish I could just rewind to take it all in a little bit more.
That’s why I fought like hell to give you the send off you deserved with everything you wanted. I didn’t care who I pi**ed off or what it cost.
It’s days like today that bring some tears to my eyes but so many other days a smile to my face when I think of you.
From the day I was born you called me Boopie… don’t know where the hell you came up with that. I wish I could hear it from you 1 more time. I hear it from others in my life but it’s just not the same.
What I would give for just one more day with you. Hell just one more talk like the old days so I could really just tell you thank you for being my best friend, the person I confided in, my occasional punching bag, and most importantly how much I love you and through the good and the bad you were the best big brother in the world!
Soar high eagle I pray your at peace. You’re finally free of the demons in your head. Thank you for the daily signs you’re still with me.
Until we meet again
Love you always... Boopie
Hey there now
Where'd you go
You left me here
So unexpected
You changed my life
I hope you know
'Cause now I'm lost
So unprotected
In the blink of an eye
I never got to say goodbye
Like a shooting star
Flying across the room
So fast so far
You were gone too soon
You're a part of me
And I'll never be the same here without you
You were gone too soon
You were always there
Like a shining light
On my darkest days
You were there to guide me
Oh I miss you now
I wish you could see
Just how much your memory
Will always mean to me.
RIP 8/10/82-3/26/15
