12/10/2024
I gave myself my first day off in almost a month on Friday. It was my fifth day off since the end of August. I (over)packed my fall market schedule this year, and I’ve been doing Saturday and Sunday markets most weekends since Labor Day. Combine that with the 22 hours a week I work “off farm” for a dairy farm, fall wholesale harvests (think digging ~1100lbs of potatoes by hand), the threat of frost, and some phenomenal markets that have meant I need to make more arrangements…and there just hasn’t been time to stop or rest.
I am, frankly, pretty beyond burnout. I’m at the point where I had stress dreams every night for a week about digging potatoes, cried in the kitchen from sheer overwhelm and exhaustion when a friend asked me how it’s going, and am trying (and failing) not to fixate on all the chances to see friends and hike that I’m missing because I have to work near constantly.
I have some winter planning to do about how to make this more manageable next year, but in the meantime, today I had a really nice day. I went for a run on my favorite class four rd. I washed and admired the clothes my roommate and I dyed with seconds marigolds, and then we went for a walk with their sister’s dog to take in the foliage. Ness (the dog) helped me plant Scilla and snowdrops in the lawn for next spring.
Anddd then I drove over to my parents, packed their truck for market, pulled special orders, and came back and made a few wreaths I was short on, because there’s still not totally time for a day off.
I don’t want this to be a woe is me post - I’m more trying to say thank you to everyone who has helped/supported/commiserated with me recently. I’m also trying to be clear about the economic realities of small scale ag - that making it work financially means working two months straight without a break. And I’m trying to say I’d really like it if our country spent money on climate change mitigation, affordable housing, and things that would make my job easier, rather than on killing civilians in other countries.
Anyway, I’m feeling way more refreshed after this gorgeous fall day, and hope to see you at .farmers.market today or Sunday!