15/04/2024
There are times when the waves of life toss and turn you. They push and pull. They threaten to drown you, overwhelm you, and never let you get back to safety.
As you’re about to give up, the strangest thing happens. The tides become still, you see the coast, and with the little fight left in you, you reach the shore.
Can you think of a time when this was true in your life?
I can, and it actually wasn’t very long ago.
When 2023 started I was thrilled. I had recently been promoted at my job, and was about to start my position as an adjunct professor at UConn. My hobbies were taking off to a whole new level as my writing was about to be published in print for the first time, and I was now writing for large and reputable websites. I had everything I wanted, so I submersed myself in my work and my career.
I thought everything was going well. How could it not? I had it all: the husband, our son, the house, the career, the reputation, what could go wrong?
What I didn’t take into account were both the internal and external storms raging. The severity of my depression and anxiety, the upcoming unexpected diagnosis, the relational conflict taking a new level, and the intensity of the work I did without a break. Before I realized, the waves had pulled me to treacherous deep waters and I couldn’t keep up the pace required to overcome them. I was too stubborn and prideful to realize that there were things that needed to come off board if I was to survive. Slowly but surely the intensity of the storm left me no other option, and with all the unnecessary weight on board, and the unrelenting support and help from my husband, dad, and siblings, my ship reached the coast, wrecked but alive.
Recovering from the wreckage was painful. Walking away for the career I strived for was so very hard. Accepting and embracing my limitations and weaknesses has been humbling and challenging.
As I took a step back to draw the blueprints, I realized it was time to chase my dreams and do something I love. So here I am, doing it, building from the ground up, and this small business is part of building a stronger foundation to sail again.
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