09/11/2024
Luckily instagram lets you post twice the amount of content cause it definitely takes a lot longer to provide life updates. It’s simpler to just say that some things have gotten easier and some thing have gotten harder. More so, I think it’s better to just surrender and say I don’t know what the hell I am doing. I have found more solitude when I’m am spending time alone with my son than when I’m just completely all by myself since that’s just time to catch up on things that I can’t do when he’s around.
Life lately has been fulfilling to watch and discover all of his interest. It’s an absolute joy to see his smile and hear his laugh. Show signs of affection. It’s been about learning his likes and dislikes even though it’s emotionally painful. It’s just hard to express himself at times but deep down inside I know what he’s feeling because I have felt it too. It all prepares me to eventually explain it to him… do doo doo do dooo
