03/06/2026
Four Years Today - four years of longing for you, four years of missing and regretting and searching for the peace, security, normalcy, and comfort we once knew. Four years of wondering what if, why us, wondering how we will heal, how we will survive, wondering if you can see us, wondering if you would be proud. Four years of holding it all together, four years of not giving up, four years of making it one day at a time. I have learned that the questions and the longing will always be the same, no matter how much time passes. I have learned that this pain, this grief I carry, will always be a part of my story. I focus on the good that you did here on this earth and all that you taught us. How you could never pass a homeless person on the street without offering assistance, how you gave and gave to the people you loved, even if it was exhausting you or even scaring you. How in your darkest and most uncertain moments, you got up and started each day with resilience and commitment. No matter what, you got up each day and led the family, the farm, and those you mentored. I have learned to live without you by my side, but you are the strength I carry inside of me. You are why I get up each day, try to live, love, and succeed. You are why I plant hope and why I don't give up. Missing you one day at a time and all the days as they add up to years!! Four years ♥️