10/18/2020
The questions I get asked the most: how are you guys doing? Are you holding up?
I always answer with positive/encouraging words - but I always want to answer differently. To some, I give them the truth, to others, I just recite a few sentences that now come out automatically.
Those are the questions I have no time to answer. So perhaps I should just write about it, in between cutting potatoes and washing dishes this morning. In the last few weeks - a few things happened that almost put me over the edge - and on those 2 occasions, I can say that I was not ok. Holding up isn't as accurate as holding on, because this has been a wild ride. Let me give you a glimpse into my mind.
BASIC, and all that matters, in order of importance:
Are my family healthy and safe? Yes.
Have we been able to pay our bills? Yes.
The rest:
I am often given the advice to not work so much, and to think of my family - to spend time with them. I can't lie, I am a workaholic. During regular times - I am passionate about my work, my business and what it brings me. But this is a pandemic. There isn't an ounce of me that doesn't want to spend more time with my family - but do not misinterpret that as me not thinking about them. I wake up every day, and show up to work every day for my family - and nothing else. Spending time with them, is a luxury - and I have never and will never take it for granted.
I have the best partner anyone can ask for - my wife. Our understanding is simple: we both are doing everything we can to protect both of our homes and to make sure we make it out of this. My parents have been together 40+ years, and the most important lesson they have tried to instill in my brothers and I are to "compromise". Ginette compromises with me daily, almost hourly - to help support me with everything we need to do to make us stay afloat. She isn't working these days, and has not. She has temporarily closed her part of our business - which was so promising for the summer that just passed. The lesson that Ginette has taught me, is not to compromise - but to sacrifice. She takes herself and her needs out of the equation to care for Thomas, and does everything she can to assist me with our business needs.
I have no time for hobbies or things that interest me. I have no time to pat myself on the back. The thing I have the least amount of time for - is anything virtual (zoom meeting, virtual conference, teleconference, etc.). I have yet to see a survey that helps any hospitality business dig themselves out of the hole, or inform anyone on how to save their sinking ship. Although this has been an avenue that has helped people tremendously, and have helped businesses evolve - this is not for me. If you see me advertising "virtual cooking classes", you'll know we are in the last few stretches of my business's life.
I have surrounded myself with positive, hardworking people that want the same thing as me - contribute to the vision of our business - and these days pump out the best food we can. A chef I worked for would describe being a cook as being in the trenches. Battle is going great, you think you dodged a bomb and them BOOM. You just passed over a landmine and came out unscathed, but you lost your provisions. Everyday my team and I go to war, and everyday we come out of the battle victorious. Sometimes a little wounded, sometimes with our heads down. Surveys (you know I love them) and stats show that 50-60% of tourism-based businesses will close. Unfortunately, some already have and some are closing daily. I promise you - if there's anything I know is that my business and whatever it becomes as it evolves and dodges gr***des will not be closing. It will not be closing because I have an amazing group of people that have my back, that believe in showing up to the Iron Kettle everyday event if they stepped on a bomb the day prior.
I take risks every day, and I am admiring people taking risks - especially these days. Opening a restaurant is nuts and in a pandemic is just psycho. That being said, my risks define who I am - and they are small and constant, but I take them on one at a time, with the same approach. What I am afraid of, is what lights the fire in me and also excites me.
My people - the people who support me every day: our customers, our clients (call them whatever you want), have propelled the rollercoaster that I am on, and don't seem to want to get off. These people sometimes sit out for one round or 2, but they always resurface with their friends. We need them. We need you. I am eternally grateful for everyone keeping this ship afloat,
The answer to the questions, isn't as simple as: "yes, we are doing good", or "yes, things are ok". You can gather your own answer out of this text, if you can calculate the amount of terrible references that I have made to thrilling and scary activities. The fire that is in me, is not fueled by anything else than courage, passion and the sight of a 4 year old boy eating a baguette.
We are not ok but we are doing great. We are not holding up, we are holding on. Bring it.