07/09/2024
Thinking back to this previous weeks events I’ve had a lot to think about. Losing you so soon and the old wound of loss being ripped open again. Aria Claire 6 years was way to short but I know your having fun. I’m sorry it happened that way.
I’ve had time to sit and dwell and realize that life is so fragile and can be over in the blink of an eye.
Some verses keeping me going is Psalm 34:18 “The lord is near the brokenhearted and he saves the crushed in spirit”. Has been a great reminder that through every step of this journey of loss that he provides. Grief is a journey that never completely ends. Some days will be easy to bear while others it’ll just stun me and make me ask why. Why does a life so young have to be cut short. Why me, why my family, why the pool, why during fun of summer. Why why why why why.
But you can’t ask why. It’s not my plan for life. Not my will be done but yours Jesus.
The last few days I’ve written some poems about how I was feeling while in my thoughts
Lost
I got lost again today,
Wandering through memories' maze,
Where shadows of the past replay,
And grief in silent whispers stays.
I remember her laughter, so bright,
Her smile that could light up the night,
But now the days blend into gray,
Since the day my little sister went away.
Her absence is a void so deep,
In dreams, her face I seek,
But reality pulls me back again,
To face the loss, to bear the pain.
Though she's gone, her spirit stays,
Guiding me through life's winding ways,
In my heart, she'll always be,
A cherished part of my memory
I stared off today,
In memories where shadows play,
Of a little girl with eyes so bright,
Who filled our hearts with pure delight.
Aria, with her laughter sweet,
Her tiny hands, her dancing feet,
At just six years, she made her mark,
A light that shone within the dark.
But time was cruel, it took her fast,
Leaving echoes of the past,
In every corner of our home,
In every place we used to roam.
I miss her smile, her gentle touch,
The way she cared, loved so much,
Though she's gone, her spirit stays,
Guiding me through life's hard maze.
In dreams, I see her, hear her voice,
In memories, I find my choice,
To cherish every precious day,
And keep her close in every way.
Aria, though you're far above,
You left us with a boundless love,
In our hearts, you'll always be,
A loved part of our memory.
Rest in Peace Aria. I’ll forever miss you
