30/04/2024
๐FEELING THE FEAR AND DOING IT ANYWAY๐
I've been thinking about this post for a while. Mainly because I've been pogo-ing about in the moshpit of imposter syndrome + comparison for a good few months now, + F**K, if it doesn't just suck the joy out of things!
๐ฅด๐ฅด๐ฅด
I really thought I'd be well ahead of the game by now; that I'd have a polytunnel full of blooms, that the game changing event I committed to for May would be an awesome opportunity to showcase what I'm capable of, that I'd be flying high after a couple of years of learning...
๐คธ๐ผโโ๏ธ๐คธ๐ผโโ๏ธ๐คธ๐ผโโ๏ธ
But I'm not. In fact, I have about 6 blooms. I had to pull out of the cool thing I was really looking forward too + I got too little in the ground, too small, too late in the polytunnel. Oh + the poxy ants ate everything anyway
๐๐๐
Everytime I pick up my phone I'm bombarded with flowery experts with fields full of successful crops, energetic entrepenuers dropping off armfuls of bouquets to sell at local markets + incredible artistic creations that make me feel what I'm doing is totally ๐ฉ
๐๐๐
But as the Spice Girls๐ถ so prophetically sang: STOP RIGHT THERE, THANK YOU VERY MUCH!
โ๐ป๐โ๐ป
Yes - I've made planting mistakes this year
Yes - I'm not ready to take on the world (yet)
Yes - I've still got A L O T to learn about running a seasonal business...
But HOLY F**K, look what I've achieved through sheer force of will, hard graft + saying Y E S to things + making it work.
๐ป๐ชป๐ท
I think what I'm trying to say, is that there is ALWAYS someone better than you at something, someone that's got there first, had the great idea + is making everything look easy. But you know what else? They will have had s**t days + cried in the car in Lidl carpark. Social media is full of bo****ks + being s**t at something is the first step at being AWESOME at something.
๐ค๐ป๐ค๐ป๐ค๐ป
๐ปSo FEEL THE FEAR + do it anyway
๐ชปF**k bebz, LEAN INTO IT!
๐ปSay HELL YEAH, when you haven't the foggiest how to do something
๐ทWORK S**T OUT ON THE FLY as it happens
๐ปPIVOT like you're on wheels
๐ชปTRUST in yourself
๐ปALWAYS be brave and stay kind
๐ซถ๐ป๐ซถ๐ป๐ซถ๐ป
It will be ok ๐ฉท