31/12/2023
2023 💣- what an absolute rollercoaster of a year .. emotional, heavy and so so hard. Giving up a new loved home to return to a completely destroyed home on another continent and start from scratch. To give up friends and loved ones and start all over again with a new routine and struggles on a daily basis.. not just to carry and deal my own, but also the emotions and fears of my 2 kids didn’t make it any easier. Always trying to give the best and be the best possible to them and not to forget about my own self every day was and is still hard .. so so hard. So much more when being very critical, hard and unhappy with yourself most of your life. I have always struggled with myself- the way I look and feel .. I always wanted to be different. I always wanted to be like others. Always cared too much about how other people think of me. Always lied heavy on my shoulders and sometimes still does. 2024 should be for everyone to MORE SELF LOVE - less care about others that are mostly just jealous or bored with their own life’s - and to being healthy!! Doing the last 3 months with a gym and diet routine gave me a lot positivity!!
Thank you to everyone who stayed with me despite emotions and harsh times, and esp thank you to all those new amazing humans in my life I met no matter what the situation and I was like 🖤 I actually can’t be more grateful for all and must remind myself daily for all the blessings I have. To the haters: I love u too. Without u I wouldn’t be thriving to become an even better version to give u s**t to talk about ;) cheers and let the big year of 40 be just the best of all #2023 #2024 #40 📷 .surf.snaps ✨
