02/09/2024
I’ll be going on Hiatus for a bit (don’t worry, still working on that tuber sale for March!).
My goal with social media has always been to brighten peoples lives with the flowers I grow, but also to be vulnerable and honest about the physical and mental health struggles I’ve faced that are real behind the scenes, and the things I’ve done which have helped me work through a lot of struggles in the hopes of inspiring people to not give up. I think people appreciate vulnerability, everyone’s going through or has gone through something, and this idea that we all have to pretend we’re ok and life is perfect really sets a false precedent that helps no one. I know I often got caught comparing myself to others who seemed to have it all, wondered why I couldn’t be more like that. Comparison is the thief of joy my flower friends, and I found the ones I was comparing myself to were selling me a story, a fantasy…and I just can’t do that!
I posted about a month ago that I was doing better then ever and was finally making momentum with my health, and that still holds true! But sometimes you can’t predict what life with throw your way and life’s thrown some stuff. I’ve been sent for a tailspin and I’m having trouble righting myself. Mental health has to come first, if you don’t have that you have nothing, so I’m doing some things to get the help I need. Unfortunately that means the business needs to take a backseat. I’m scared my whole season is going to be ruined, but I also know a lot more then that will be lost if I don’t take care of myself first. I hope this isn’t perceived as seeking empathy because that’s the last thing I want. I want to be vulnerable so I CAN keep April Showers Flowers alive, keep the amazing customer base/regulars/friends I’ve made through this little flower farm. I figured vulnerability over hiding or disappearing was the way to go.
I still plan on having the tuber sale in March…so just hang out a little longer. Not sure if I’ll have any flowers myself this year, but trying to take it one day at a time.
Thank you for being on this journey with me and for all the love and support, I’ll update when I can. Flower on flower friends❤️