01/19/2024
‼️Warning‼️ A bit graphic. Just felt I needed to share.
So I Had a heavy meal ‘eggs,salsa,onion, & beans with a couple tortilla chips
‘ last night and I believe that’s what made me have a nightmare. I was sleeping in a strangers house with a stranger goth skinny girl. Kinda hot. The host of the house resembled Ron Jeremy I think that’s his name the p**n acter from the 70s/80s. Which doesn’t make sense I never really watched his stuff maybe as a kid I came across it and even now I don’t watch p**n. I don’t drink and don’t smoke anymore any who the apartment resembled my uncle P’s home from when we used to visit as a kid. I know the dream had more interactions with more people before it was bed time but all I could remember is going to sleep in a small bed in the living room by the front window with the goth girl in almost complete darkness. She had the wall side and I get a tingling sensation of being scared so ask her to switch so we do and when we do we get more comfortable and we actually start to have s*x she gets on top and as soon as she does we see our host Ron walk over slowly from his room all the way from the other side of his house so she gets off quickly and we both pretend to go to sleep and in the next couple seconds I look over her with one eye and all I can see is him or just his arm by the corner of the room throwing one hand up over and over like chanting something and next thing you know I see his shadow moving towards us but his shadow is like a cat but with a long tail and horns so you know exactly what that looked like. Any who as soon as I saw this I wake up screaming witch I hadn’t done in a very long time since I was with my sons mom. As soon as I wake up I see that my cat was the one approaching me in my bed and actually scare her (sugar) i right away turn my tv on put something on and that’s me now writing this right away to not forget. My cat eventually came back on the bed and now just keeps looking at me like if saying “oh boy I hope this guy is ok” witch I’m not just sucks I have to go through this alone.
Only reason I decided to write this down is because I rarely dream and decided to write about all my dreams I can remember no matter good or bad.
I know it’s more than just a heavy meal. The reason for the dream but that’s for another day. All I can say I’m going through the toughest times in my life at least that’s how it’s felt these past couple years and still I feel like I’m drowning and don’t know when this feeling will end. But I do have faith things will get better. I say all this to not scare anyone just wanted to share what I’m going through and let anyone know if you are having tough times keep pushing have faith things will get better.
Lastly I’ve been admitting I do need therapy and there’s absolutely nothing wrong with that and as soon as I can afford it you better believe I will get some.
