01/09/2025
It’s been awhile since I’ve posted and shown up here. I haven’t had much to say. Nothing seemed worthy or important to share while feeling so broken and walking through such a tragic loss, losing my mom so suddenly.
Truth is, I hated coming on here and seeing life go on as usual while my world was crumbling beneath my feet and I felt so broken. It just didn’t seem right or fair.
I’ve been clinging to Jesus. I’ve been spending my mornings in prayer, mostly crying my heart out to Lord, journaling, and surrendering all the pain at the feet of Jesus. It’s too much for me to carry. One of the wisest things someone ever said to me in grief was that time doesn’t heal, only Jesus does.
He is our surpassing love, joy, peace, hope, and comfort. “He is close to the brokenhearted. He saves those crushed in spirit.” Psalm 34:18
I know that God didn’t cause her to get sick. He is not the author of sickness and disease. But He will use that pain and brokenness and turn it into something good. He is always working for our good. He will bring beauty from the ashes. I know that full well.
Slowly, the huge gaping hole in my heart is healing. Day by day it’s slowly being mended. Unexpected joy has been able to coexist with immense grief and sadness. Only by the grace of God.
Piece by piece He is mending my broken heart. A part of my heart and soul will forever be missing this side of heaven. But thank you Jesus for loving me, drawing near to me, carrying me through this unbearable pain, and thank you most of all for this being just a temporary separation. That is the greatest gift of all.
Michelle of Michelle Popp Photography is photographer specializing in newborn, maternity, motherhood
