Desert Rebel

12/25/2025

Trying to warm up my hands who haven't picked up a pair of jewelry pliers in years. A lil easy project this xmas morning.

12/25/2025

12/20/2025

Timely find in my jewelry making stash. Synchronicity always visits me with surprises.

12/18/2025

Still grieving, it activated me. I can think back to the many times I wanted to just be vulnerable about where I was, and sometimes tried, but instead of receiving compassion and kindness, I was responded to with frustration, defensiveness or blame.

This makes my heart hurt. But also validates that I did the right thing by loving myself first and leaving a relationship that did not feed me, but harmed me.

He wasn't a bad person, just a man without tools and enough gumption to change. I can forgive, but I can not forget.

12/15/2025

No agenda, no mission, no to-do list. Just presence; leaning into Sunday ease, consisting of a cup of coffee windowside, an audible book while playing with the cats, a mid afternoon nap, afternoon walk, and evening writing my thoughts.

What a new way of living, but most importantly, feeling. Peace, free of drama and struggle, left to my own heart, body, and soul to do what I feel. To rest and enjoy this new life, I am so delicately rebuilding for myself.

Not every day is like this one, but I am OK with that. I am OK being present for what is. Good and not so good. My groundedness is slowly returning, and for that, my gratitude is tremendous.

12/10/2025

In the last week, I had a discussion with someone I thought was a friend who turned sour when I shared my differing opinions to boycott a business based on my value system and was quickly debated and spoken down to. As well, during another part of this un-asked for debate, the bartender chimed in uninvited and said with a chuckle, "Well, I got a coat hanger in my trunk".

How did I get here, and when can I leave?

12/10/2025

What a fascinating finale for the year of the snake! People have been dropping like flies from my life, and I can't deny it's been good for my growth and overall benefit. A reforming people pleaser and martyr for the sake of love, I can not and will not bend any longer, and it's never felt so right. I dont mean to sound calloused, but I am from all the wear on my heart from decades of hard work. Guess its uncomfortable for them because another one bites the dust!

12/06/2025

Current status: painting my own sky. At 52, I see the earned lines on my face, the softeness in my belly, and the growing of more grey than black on my head. I am feeling my queen cronehood arriving. I am owning this new and sudden power and wisdom while still shedding the old, letting go of beliefs, relationship patterns, and ways of being in the world, I am painting my own sky. Paving a new path while honoring the old one that had to happen. I am learning to lean into this newfound peace.

11/23/2025

The more presence you give to your life, it becomes easier to sit with the things that arise without immediately acting. The more you curiously reflect on how you feel when those activations come up, you get a fuller picture on what those triggers are about. Slowly and with compassion and patience for yourself, you begin to heal.

11/06/2025

if women can be okay without relationships, so can men.

Jeff calls it out. Men need men who call each other out but also be vulnerable, compassionate and growth and community oriented.