04/24/2024
On Saturday, I attended a queens event it was so empowering. Queens talked about their journey in pageantry, their why… no one focused on the crown.
When I shared my why, I focused on healing and allowing people to know they are enough, they are worthy, even when others speak negatively against them, and say they’re not good enough.
Later that day, after speaking to a mentee, I learned of some negative comments a Queen(s) had to say about me.. someone I loved … it hurt because of the relationship I assumed we had. it made me doubt myself. It also made me doubt my purpose, it gave me anxiety, even though I knew better.
I didn’t understand why I felt how I felt. I started having thoughts about queens that have committed su***de. Just like mean girls there are mean queens with clicks.
In that moment my purpose became even more clear. Even though I’m not perfect, I continue to strive to grow and to help others.. remembering hurt people hurt people. And a nice bag or dress doesn’t equal happiness dollin. Privilege in pageantry or other aspects of life is real.
On Sunday, I hosted a Tea Party, focusing on mental health, nutrition, confidence and them just enjoying life, knowing you are enough!!
As my day came to an end, I was reminded of the past month when I was contacted about two young ladies, wanting to commit su***de. I was asked, for my assistance because I was all that they talked about prior.
When I look at how the young ladies and women at the tea party enjoyed themselves as well as pulled me to the side to say thank you…… I understood it’s not about what shallow people think about me, but about the difference that I continue to make. I’ve been contacted by so many mothers over the years saying how their daughter’s lives have been changed since meeting me. I say all this to say pay attention because people will try to abort your mission!!!!!!!
I have always worn a crown. Im no pageant Patty though!!! Im Authentically Me!!!
I have been doing this work, Mentally and physically before becoming Mrs.Delaware, America!!
I will continue to try to keep people from feeling the negative feelings that I felt and thinking the negative thoughts that I’ve thought due to the lack of love from unconfident and hateful people. How can someone appreciate you when they are not even confident in themselves. So when you ask me why I do so much… because I want people to know that they can do anything they put their mind to especially be their authentic selves as long as they do it in love.
Understanding, That no one thoughts of you are more important than what God put on your heart to do, so continue to inspire continue to love and continue to grow. For those that smile in my face, held my hand and hugged me All while preying on me……. I pray that the love of God on me made you feel more secure and loved. I don’t need a filter. I’m beautiful on the inside and outside in real life!
May you continue to watch my journey and see the love and light of God shine on this earth!!!
