02/07/2023
With Valentine’s Day fast approaching, I know some people aren’t too fond of this holiday. It has a history of bringing up some bad feelings or heartache. So, I’m going to share a little story with you all, maybe putting it out into the universe will help me and hopefully help someone else.
The weekend my boyfriend and I broke up the new Miley Cyrus song “Flowers”came out. It was so fitting that I seriously looked up at God with some sass & side eye and said, “really?!?”
Yes, I had a boyfriend. Yes, I’m very private about stuff like that. Yes, it was serious. Yes, I thought this person could have been a part of the rest of my life. Yes, flower dad met him. Yes, the family liked him and still like him. No, I don’t have anything bad to say about him or the breakup. Yes, it sucks. Now you’re caught up, no questions necessary, nor will I be answering any 😂
Right after we finally had the post-breakup closure discussion, I hopped in the car and drove (auto piloted) to Tulsa, turned on Country breakup songs, and got any tears out of me that needed to be shed. I decided I needed an evening to myself to do whatever I wanted to do, to think or not think, to talk or not talk, and distract myself with pretty things. So, I went and got a coffee and then headed to the mall. I don’t think I had been to the mall in YEARS. If I go to the mall I stay within the boundaries of Dillard’s, but I usually don't venture off to the whole mall. If I leave Dillard’s it’s usually for a quick hop over to J.Crew and back. I ALWAYS park at the Dillard’s shoe department, I learned that from my Meme at an early age. Well actually, she taught me all of her shopping knowledge 💁🏻♀️ I mean who wouldn’t want to start out their shopping with shoes, right!! I really thought I’d go to Abercrombie & Fitch to try on jeans 😂 according to the kids on TikTok (and girls my age 😂😂), A&F jeans are where it's at, but then I realized we don’t even have an A&F in the mall anymore, then I realized I shopped there like 20 years ago, and then I realized I’m too damn old to be shopping there in the first place 🤦🏻♀️😂 case in point, this is why I stay within the boundaries and safety of Dillard’s with a touch of J.Crew. Anyway, I wondered around the mall aimlessly, bought myself one cute outfit at J.Crew 😂, went back to Dillard’s to grab makeup I’ve had on my to do list to get for months, took one more spin around the shoe department, and then took myself to dinner. I went to Bull in the Alley, sat at the bar, ordered a filthy dirty martini and caviar, people watched, and listened to the piano. It’s something he and I used to do together. I guess I needed a reminder that I can take myself there anytime I want, sometimes I may only be able to afford a martini, but that’s neither here nor there. I was going to order some pasta or the creme brulee, which would’ve actually been even better now that I think about it, coping with a breakup to a whole pie plate of creme brulee. If you’ve never been to Bull in the Alley, their creme brulee is only served in a 9” pie plate, there are no other size options, and it’s fantastic! It sure would’ve been something out of a movie….girl sitting at a bar post breakup and polishes off a creme brulee that would normally feed 4+ people 😂 But anyway, I was content with my caviar and martini, so I sat there until the piano man stopped playing.
Finally, I took myself home and thought alright I’m good, I can move forward.
That doesn’t mean I’m not going to have sad days here and there, doesn’t mean I’m not going to think about him from time to time, doesn’t mean I don’t miss him, but I’m fine, I’ll be fine, I’m not going to let it derail me or everything else going on in my life, and I can move forward, the moving forward might look a little bumpy at times, but I can move forward.
I say all this to say, ladies & gentlemen if you find yourself in a similar situation or have been hit with a period of heart break, listen to Miley! Go buy yourself flowers, go buy yourself the damn caviar, go buy yourself the f-ing disco balls! Just go do whatever you need to do to make yourself happy. You’re the only one in control of your happiness.
Don’t let a little thing like Valentine’s Day get you down! 💗💗💗
P.S. — The only thing I'll say about the breakup is that we were supposed to have mini highland cows one day. Mini, fluffy, baby cows….and now I constantly have the cutest fluffy cows popping up all over my feed, it's a constant reminder of the breakup, it's real annoying and I'm sour about it. Now I'm going to have to figure out how to get myself the freaking fluffy cows some day.
Also please buy my flowers, I'm going through a breakup 😂😂😂
Today’s story time should really be sponsored by , , , , , , Bull in the Alley, and (cute sweater in this picture).