06/01/2024
Brace yourselves this is a long one ..
A year ago today I was on my way to an appointment, I got a call from my sister that I needed to turn around and come home. My dad had been on life support for 4 days so I knew what this call meant. Just a week before we thought our lives were changing forever- Dad had been in the hospital over a month, he called up my mom and said โhow was the store today? Oh and we got a heartโ. 4 days later and everything we were so excited for quickly faded away. The drs let us say our goodbyes and told us to wait in the waiting room. I refused to leave him alone. I stood in the room and held him and played the song he would sing to me. Iโll never forget the dr saying โTOD 10:10pmโ and feeling like my entire world had just been flipped upside down.
This year has felt like a blur. Every single thing I do is bitter sweet. Dad was always my first call when I did a big client or had good news. Everything Iโve done this year from traveling constantly to working on TV sets to ending up at a chiefs game in LA, he would have been the first to know. He would have been so proud to see all that Iโve done. That is my motivation everyday- to continue to make him proud. I knew he was proud of me the way he bragged to everyone about me. The entire hospital knew Big Hoop Energy, he never missed an opportunity talk about it.
Thereโs so much I could say. If you knew him you knew he was the absolute coolest man on earth. He knew everything about everything and loved to spread that knowledge. Iโll miss that. I miss hearing his stories and seeing his smile. Thank god I have his smile and I get to see his face whenever I look at mine. I miss his hugs. I miss learning all of his recipes and cooking together. I miss seeing him asleep on the recliner because he worked so hard everyday. I even miss his eye rolls of disgust when I got a new tattoo and him asking where the rest of my pants are. I miss everything about him everyday.
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