08/03/2025
Big Congratulations 🔥💀🔥
Today marks
1000 days of recovery.
1000 days of no alcohol
1000 days of living
1000 days of being truthful to myself
1000 days of hard work
1000 days of growth
1000 days of accountability
1000 days I can truly say I was honest and genuine about everything I have said to anyone.
I drank from 2001 to 2022 (heavily and everyday from 2013-2022). Thats over 20yrs of alcohol abuse from a teenager to my 30s. Its crazy to think about now that I am sober and just turned 39.
If you would have told me I would be where Im at and sober 3 years ago, I would have laughed looking at you with glazed over eyes, vodka on my breathe, with a sense of "you made that s*t up" in my head.
This journey wouldn't be nothing without the love of my kids and my wife. The love of self, and the knowledge of knowing I am capable of anything.
To my kids... none of you know this, but everything good I am doing in my life is for you. Im doing it for me because its what I have wanted to do my whole life, but I am doing it for you so I can leave you something more than love when Im gone.
I want you 3 boys to have the ability to have more for yourselves. I want to leave you with something of me you can hold on to and cherish, but also be able to strengthen your own lives with.
You boys are the biggest part of my legacy and I love you all from the depths of my heart.
Dad just wants to make you proud.
To my wife - Shannon Layne you gave me the space and ability to begin this journey of self on my own. You stayed behind me to help me if I fell and needed a reminder, but you never hindered or tried to take over any of the first steps I started taking.
You made your journey look so damn appealing, I just had to hop on your bandwagon. Lol. You gave me a perspective of thinking that I used to think was weird and BS.
Little did I know how true it all was. Choosing to better myself and my life, to better us and our life was the single most amazing decision I ever made. Understanding truly what "choice" really is, was an amazing discovery for me. Thank you my love. You are my rock.
To my mama Brenda Cowan - you didnt understand the journey when I began, you didnt understand the changes I was making, you didnt understand what I was doing, but you loved me through it all.
You made changes within yourself to allow yourself to see that I was bettering me. You always told me to do what I needed to do to make sure I was good and I believed you.
I love you mama.
To the Nameless team and the Nameless Faces Collective - all of you have been such an important part of my growth and my life in general. I am glad I have you all individually and together with me. You all are a very necessary part of my life and I love all of you.
To my fans and supporters - you guys have no idea what you mean to me. You listen to my music, you laugh at my jokes, you understand and care about what I have to say.
I appreciate you guys so much and want to thank you all for all the years you put up with my s*t to get to this point. I love you all too.
And to anyone that has made it this far that may be going through a rough time or dealing with their own addictions. Its not too late to make a change for yourself.
You can choose to be happy everyday, you can choose to be sober and recover from thos addictions, YOU CAN do everything you wanted to do and more.
You're Not Alone! I love you.
