07/03/2024
One year ago today.
On this night last year, I was attempting to make a video explaining the very little I knew about the heart diagnosis that I received that morning. That picture is a screen shot of that afternoon.
A few hours earlier, after routine tests, I was told by doctors that my heart was essentially dead with almost no function from my left ventricle. The next 24 hours consisted of a defibrillator vest, a double heart catheterization, a new medicine regimen and lots of tears (mainly from my family, not me. 😉) Acute Systolic Heart Failure. EF 14%.
From that day, until last Tuesday, I lived a very normal life, with the exception of a pacemaker that was implanted in June. The only difference is that I lived with full awareness that heart disease was likely a part of my life for the foreseeable future, and likely the rest of my life until an inevitable transplant.
A year ago today, every moment became more precious.
A year ago today, Jesus reclaimed His proper position in my life.
A year ago today, I learned what it meant to surrender to His plan and to seek only the things He wanted me to know, rather than try to figure out the “why”.
The only answer He gave me…”Know that I love you, I am in control and I have a plan.”
A week ago today, at my 6-month checkup, all I heard Him say to me was, “See?”.
He knew that was all I needed to know.
Today, March 6, 2024…my heart has healed almost completely…in more ways than one.
Modern medicine is pretty great. Jesus, on the other hand, heals hearts. I know this full well.
