12/10/2020
Mood of the day...A bit moody. There is a lot of feelings of confusion mixed with uncertainty. I know that this feelings are normal when you face with challenges that scare you or are not pleasant and yet there is a lot of self shame in the process of learning new ways and facing unknown territory. Thoughts like "Here you go again, getting yourself into a possible pickle ", " "Why do you even think you will be able to pull this up?", "Who is going to buy your stuff?", "Doing the whole opening business process again?! "Aida! What are you doing?". Yes, those are real thoughts, days like today are hard.
Still, I know that this is just a day and the fear and anxiety will succumb and pass. This thoughts will not stop me, today they are the extra hill I will have to walk on but, tomorrow I will feel better. I always do.
I know days like today are important to feel, to let be. The memories of days like today will feel sweet when I reach my goal and they will become motivational memories. I do not run from them, I take them as they are because of what they will become.
What are your challenges today? what is your mood? How do you manage your shaming thoughts?